This is my new poem for my sessions at the Common Word.

I have to add the sessions from last year been amazing for me and I performed two times and now I am going through bringing my “Inside Persian Poetry” out to English as a Persian girl  🙂  I am getting there #Feeling Productive Also check the P.S at the end

Confessa In The Present       by Mahboobeh Rajabi

Scene 1:  Confessa In …

Just under the neck
going through the middle of my body
Where it’s called “chest”
Is heavy …

Is so heavy that’s like someone put a heavy rock on it
I can still breathe, but it’s heavy
I punch it while I inhale and exhale deeply
But it’s not working
I close my eyes for just listening to my body and my breathing

My chest is going up, inhaling the universe of thoughts
The plan is to exhale the “Nothing”
And just the thought of breathing

Inhale …. Deeply … Stop …

Stop …
How can I destroy a universe?
I never learned that
The Big Bang didn’t end yet

So how can I expect myself to end it?

My chest is heavy

Full of universes that couldn’t get destroy by exhale

I just need to confess it

And the thought of Confessa and it’s melody

Dragging my soul to the galaxy of broken but healed hearts

My pen is is like an ocean now

Each wave is a word, same time of my breathing
It lands the words on the sands:

I, whom has her name, carved in the stone of Love
Made the sky roar
when that question from the winds
stays with no answer

I teared that way of the oxygen
that made my heart beat
I listened to all person’s words
My heart was just beating
I teared it from what was the Hard Air
My heart was just beating
I teared from those capillaries of quiet

The sky roared in my throat
the clouds rained on my reaped chest
It washed the blood and clots of death
Then I put my heart back to my chest
deep breath finally heard
my beatings

The love is pouring from the sound of the lenses of the camera of the Earth
I submit all the timeless moments full of new existence feelings
and being submitted on this earth
my name was at the top
it was timeless and free

Scene 2:  The Present

The owth to that look,

Staring to the paralyzed far

That tied up to the part part of the soul

To the melody of time and trauma

Every note has a saying

From a love story

The word from the past, incredible memories

Or a paralyzed trauma

From nowhere of drama

I crossed the time

The sky got happy

Universe crossed my soul

The galaxy became a memory

The names began

The words woke up

A journey started

A quiet and far journey

A backpack full of questions

A spite from the past

And a cup of missing feelings and pains

But this journey started

Even though my backpack

Got heavy with pain

I continued the way

Whatever from the capacity of an intense past

My shoulders cried

I continued the way

But got in my way

My full backpack

As the time got heavier

The body got slower

Again had to stop and think

Make a decision, from the beginning

Sometimes at the climax of tolerance

It’s like you were just rounding around yourself

All the way through …

It was hard … It was hard

I asked myself

Where am I in the story?

Where is this part of the drama?

Full of pain …

With “ A 100 No Answer Questions”

With a backpack drawn on to my life stories

With a glance on my backpack

My shoulder couldn’t bare

I felt on my knees

In the climax of pain

I put on the ground

My full backpack

Whatever was the way

Became easier to take

Till today

I didn’t take

Any backpack

For no reason …

I continued the way … the drama … the trauma

I continued

22/05/2016

P.S  The life had been busy but exciting and productive. I will start my Digital and Animation workshops in Rochdale this week that I am looking forward to and I am also going through sorting out some unfair matters which is hard but I believe it’s making me stronger to learn my lessons and fight more and the biggest lesson is that you will help the people in your position and going through similar situation.

“Life is a fighting for a better me and making me feel better by understanding helping people in the similar fight.”  Quote from me today #AllCopyRightsReserved  🙂